Τετάρτη, 18 Ιουνίου 2014

Not to be trusted...

I am the kind of girl that trusts. I do trust people. I love human kind even if they've proved me, and still do, that i shouldn't be so blind. At least not in matters that have to deal with my emotions. At least not in issues that are able to hurt my insides. Well, if there are any insides left, i do trust, but only through time.  And it hurts even more when after that time passes, they prove you wrong.
I am the kind of girl that some times people trust. Sometimes people don't enjoy just using her, and look at her cute cover, but all they want is to give to that girl their hearts, their insides, and discover her mind and soul as well. Probably, too early, but they do.
Many times i have proved all those people wrong. They shouldn't trust me. Not as fast as they did anyway. I have quite too many examples of that kind of people that joined my life the last couple of months and i hurt them. And not just a little scratches, i can assure you.
Most of them, i really wanted to keep them in my life. Some of them, i felt some strong emotions for. Very few of them i still got communication. But to none of them i can say that i reacted the way it would be fair to react. I feel guilty, and that i hadn't been fare.
I don't know what I want, and I have to figure it out fast enough not to hurt anyone further... I need time. But not too much. Not too little. I need to get to know someone before we get to the "feelings" part of the story. And I need to get to the "feelings" part just in the moment you have actually some memories with the other person, and you have started to get to know each other.
I guess i am confused. But so were they...